Tilda Antonsson
"In the course of a year, Tilda Antonsson suffered from three concussions. The SDHL D now tells hockeysverige.se about the tough road back after the bangs that changed her life - and the risks she had taken by continuing her career in Gothenburg HC. "I do not want to think so much about it. Then I'll be afraid of the ice instead, and then I can get a bang because I'm afraid, says Antonsson.
…There will be only 10 matches in Färjestad season 2014/15. The reason for that was damage. Yes, I was hurt a lot, two concussions. The first brainshake I received on September 27th. I rested for a week, made comeback against the same team and got a new concussion in the same period and minute as the first. Then it stayed for six weeks. I came back, but gave me the beginning of the qualification because of the brain shakes."
"At the beginning, I still thought I was feeling pretty good. Then I and my best friend, Caroline Siik, were at Summerburst here in Gothenburg. I had not felt anything more than I became a bit tired than usual. At the festival I fainted. It was probably too much noise, light and people, everything made it too much for the brain. I said to "Carro", because everything began to flicker, that I now fade. She still got hold of me and let me down.
Although Tilda Antonsson fainted at the festival, she continued to live a fairly ordinary life. "I thought it was a coincidence that I had fainted. Then we were at a festival in Karlstad. The same thing happened, too, that I fainted when we were going home. I hit the head in the asphalt and got a new concussion. In other words, I received three brain shakes in less than a year.
After the last of those three, there were some mornings I did not even get out of bed and sometimes I walked around like a foolish cave man. I could lay on the couch, take it easy and then just said "bang" I got the world's headache. Then just lay down and I slept very much during this time.
Could you work?
For the first time, I was 50 percent sick But I had no permanent employment but just worked extra at different places. I think I did not do that better because I was so stressed that I might not get out of bed and need to call the boss and say that it was a bit of a struggle just that day.
"Actually, I would probably have been 100 percent sick and 100 times, and I did not even know what my name was when I left my job or I did not get up the stairs to the lunch room and stuff. I'm such a freaky skull and really did not want such things to take over.
How did the family take this?
"Just then, I lived with my former boyfriend in Karlstad, but I was able to fully enjoy myself sometimes. At the same time, I do not think he understood how it was. He just thought I was lazy when I was sleeping. I also do not really think Mom and Dad understood at the beginning.
HAD SAME LIGHTS AS SANNY LINDSTRÖM
There was hardly any game at all for Tilda Antonsson last season, just a few live matches with BIK Karlskoga / Filipstad in Division 2.
"I had the same doctor as Sanny Lindström and those who have had the same problem as me. I did the microwave x-ray, did all the tests and went to a psychologist. At this time last year, I was able to do a lot of tests because I had problems with my close-up. I forgot things all the time.
"The doctor I had told her I could not play hockey any more so I was condemned. Then this contest person started running in me "I'll prove I can come back”.
"It took a year before I could start training properly. I started training a little light and thought I felt good even though I had brain fatigue according to the psychologist. He then talked with my manager at Intersport "She may need to walk in five minutes if she feels tired" so he was aware of why I did, that I had to sit in a dark room and then come back. Now it was only once or twice that I needed to sit at the manager's office, shut the door and turn the lamp off to try and get back to life.
"Last year I played with the amateurs at Kristinehamn. It was everything from those who never played hockey before to old hockey players. It still felt pretty good and it was great fun. Then I got up again and when I saw that Gothenburg took the place from Sundsvall, I thought "I might try.” That said, it was an attempt to take place in SDHL for Antonsson.
"Göteborg has a good layout where you can play in Division 1 if you are not in SDHL. We contacted Gothenburg so I started training properly in June, more serious training more than just walking around and "lajja" for an hour once or twice a week.
How are you today?
"I'm actually good," says Göteborgsbacken with a big smile. "I know that I have brain fatigue and how to handle it properly.
Are you not afraid to get more bangs in your head, can you close your career and give you even tougher suites to live with the rest of your life?
Clearly, that might be so, but I do not want to think so much about it. Then I'm instead afraid of the ice, and then I can be scared because I'm afraid.
"Of course I think for once or twice, so I do not come in low against the sarge, because someone can come from behind and push to. Should I have thought that I'm afraid, it can be more dangerous.
You started training in June, how long after are you the others in the team?
"I feel stressed as a fan, but at the same time, I'm not shocking the body either. Then I can break up instead so I can take it step by step.
Clearly, I'm in a hurry with fitness and strength, but the brain is not 100 percent because of fatigue. Maybe that's where I lose the most plus I do not have the strength a hundred or so either. In any case, I'm pretty cool today.
"Then I'm ten kilos lower than what I did in Sundsvall. Then I weighed about 67 kilos, but today I'm happy if I'm 60 kilos.
SDHL-backen tillbaka efter huvudskadorna: ”Det var vissa gånger som jag inte ens visste vad jag hette”
SDHL D back after main injuries: "It was sometimes I did not even know what I was called”
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